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Sep. 25th, 2004

08:55 pm - ......

im bored

Sep. 16th, 2004

05:21 pm - new lj

i have made a new lj.its
i am keeping the same people on my friends list so if u havent gotten sick of me yet just add my new lj name to your friends list.bye

Sep. 15th, 2004

05:57 am - fuck

i keep having dreams that i go back and live with my old foster mom and for those who dont know the situation thats bad.it freaks me out.last night was the 12th dream i have had about that.fuck.

Current Mood: distresseddistressed
Current Music: the theme music for Mama's Family

Sep. 13th, 2004

04:49 pm - dream i had last nite

its kinda long so if u want to read it go behind the cut                                                

nighty nightCollapse )

Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: "mother russia"-Sisters of Mercy

Sep. 11th, 2004

11:00 pm - friends

i just finished talking to Johnny.god how i miss that boy! i didnt realize how much i missed his complaining.i miss my Samantha too.i dont have any friends out here....well except for the guy who pierces me.....and it breaks my heart a little.im so lonely here.....................all i have is my kitty LunchMeat but she hates me sometimes.

Current Mood: sadsad
Current Music: "cry little sister"-Bauhaus

Sep. 9th, 2004

06:52 pm - a conversation

this was a conversation between a black kid and myself in class....   

BlackGuy:"hey,hey.you,hey,do u want to be my friend?"                                                                                                     Me:*looks up*"excuse me?"
BlackGuy:"why do you hang out by yourself?do you have any friends?"
Me:"i hang out by myself because i enjoy it"
BlackGuy:"why do you have your nose pierced?can i pierce my nose like you?
Me:"you can do whatever you want,i dont care"
BlackGuy:"do you have any tattoos?"
BlackGuy:"you should get tattooed on your face"
BlackGuy:"why?that would be the shizznit"
Me:*turns around*
BlackGuy:"can i paint my nails black like you?"
Me:"i dont care....."*sigh*
BlackGuy:hey,do u have a boyfriend?"
BlackGuy:"you should get with my friend Deshaun over there*hahahahaha*" Me:"no thanks"*pulls out cd player and headphones*
BlackGuy:"oh what you gonna turn on your music and ignore me now?" Me:"yes"
BlackGuy:"oh i see ignore the nigger huh.thats fucked up!"
Me:"you said it like that, not me now if you'll excuse me...."*gets up to leave*..................ends conversation

(obviously this guy was trying to mock me)

its amazing what a stranger will say to you sometimes.

Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: "under the gun"-Sisters of Mercy

Sep. 8th, 2004

09:18 pm - vaginas and the prevention of babies

i got my vagina poked and prodded today......pap smears are so ungodly.well other than that,the world can sleep at night now knowing that i got the depo shot and there will be no babies coming out of me!(not that i could even find someone to get me pregnant).......i was walking home today and i walked past a group of black people and out of nowhere i hear, "oh my god!its the devil!".it caught me off guard and i almost walked into a parked car.the woman said it so loud.it was funny when i got home and told my brother about it but jesus....people act like they have never seen anyone walking around in a Bauhaus shirt,platform boots and a black umberella before.its san diego for god's sake....i know there are scarier looking people in this town.*sigh*but what can you do?i think deep down i like scaring the crap out of strangers once in a while.....*giggle*

Current Mood: sillysilly
Current Music: "stigmata martyr"-Bauhaus

Sep. 7th, 2004

07:16 pm - bored

Your Ultimate One Night Stand... by crispnite
LJ Username
Favorite animal
You invite over...
They bring...
You talk about...
You end up...dropping acid
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Current Mood: boredbored
Current Music: yelling

08:51 am - EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im so nervous,i think im going to puke.

Current Mood: nervousnervous
Current Music: "pornography"-The Cure

Sep. 4th, 2004

01:09 pm - more wierd dreams

i was in Canada last night,in a dream.i moved in with this family and i guess i moved to canada.there was only one teenage girl there and she was wearing this really nice satin type dress that looked like it was from the Victorian era.so i asked her where she got it and where all of the good shops were in canada and she wouldnt tell me.then i end up outside walking around for a little while.then the dream jumps to where im talking to this girl in a bathroom with the light off.she gets in the shower and everything seems ok and as im walking out of the bathroom i turn the light on so that she wouldnt be showering in the dark.i walk away from the bathroom and for some reason i get scared and run back in there.i find her laying on the floor of the shower and all i saw was blood.i pull her out out the shower and drag her into the hallway (of wherever the hell i am) and i start screaming for help and trying to find someone to call 911.then the dream skips again and im laying in a bed with the guy and we are talking.he tells me he is going to Japan and he wants me to go with him.i told him that i couldnt and he just kept asking and asking.(in reality no one would have to ask me twice to go to Japan,i would die to go =>).this guy starts kissing me and after a few moments i like gave in and said that i would go to Japan with him.............i know that more stuff happened after that but i cannot remember.

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